Fear of the Unknown

In class today we are talking about Fears.

I realized I have a huge fear of the unknown.

I dont know how im going to do in this semister of class.

I dont know.

thats the saying of the year.

I dont know if im doing the right thing....

Im going to have to figure all this out...

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

 

due to the harry potter marathon known as " muggle mania"
i have lost sleep...
so this is what im trying to stay away from...

Lifes Up and Downs

Well last week I was up on my luck...till yesterday.

I had a job, was catching up on my homework, was loosing weight. Life was good.

I got a call from my boss yesterday, while I was at the zoo with my family, and was told that my job was audited. AKA I'm jobless... again.

I'm also stressing out about school and I really hope everything works out.

I need to find another job ASAP

I'm not eating like I did last time I didn't have a job. Before I ate tons, being stressed will do that to you...its proven. Now I don't eat anything...its like the oppsite.

Hopefully my luck will go back up soon.

God is testing my patience like no other.

Better times ahead...

So it's been soooo long since I last posted anything. Things have been looking up since the last post.

A) I now work for TalkMobile. It is my first week and I love it! I get paid $10 an hour just to copy and paste information. The only thing I have to get use to is waking up at 7 in the morning everyday. 

B) I can finally get my whole calendar together. I am going to have to buy a new planner though because rthe one I have now is getting super messy.

Thats pretty much it...

I'm thinking I might get another job as like a hostess somewhere, once I get into the swing of things!

Hmmmmm...

Have you ever been angry and not really known why.

Well since I'm in that kind of mood what makes me happy right now?

a) God

b) my family

c) Hailee being there for me

d) Trevor

e) my car

d) music

e) movies

f) the beach even though I can't always be around it

g) school

h) 70 degrees weather

i) swimming

j) dance

k) kids in my life

l) flowers

m) flower headbands

n) the color pink

 o) shopping

p) hockey

q) football

r) As You Wish

s) food

t) decorating 

u) traveling

v) coming up with lists like this

w) finishing these lists

x) money

y) my crown

z) being done!

There we go... Happy again!

I've Got Spirit!

I just finished watching Glee. This week’s episode was about spirituality. Funny thing is made me think A LOT. Here is the rundown of the episode; Kirks father ends up in the hospital due to a heart attack and everyone is trying to comfort him with the ways that they are comforted, such as prayer and stuff. For the most part right up until the end he wanted nothing to do with it because he doesn’t believe in God. But at the end he gave it a chance and didn’t mind it anymore.

I got to thinking about my past religious experiences. My first coming to God was through a Lutheran church. That experience was nice, nice enough that I decided to get baptized. It was super organized. We did Holy Communion every week. I went to church camps, sang in the choir, I even played the bells. It was a good first memorable experience.

My second experience I will have to thank my ex Anthony for that. He brought me to this church that was totally opposite of my first one. They were a little more let’s say out there then what I was use to. They were much more open with their prayer. It was at this church I first witnessed someone actually reach out to God. It was like they felt Him hugging them or something. It brought tears to my eyes to see how so many people could be touch by God and not be afraid to show it. These people became a great family to me. I want to thank them for everything they did for me. I want to say thank you for helping me down the right path.

I guess I could say that school was my third experience. I go to a Christian based school and I really loved the Gathering. I went almost every week last year. I couldn’t help but to be happy every time I went. It just amazes me that so many youth want to choose the right path to God, and want to become closer to him. I don’t go this year because I have class just in the morning and other things to do and it would be a lot of gas money that I don’t have to go.

Right now im learning about a total random religion, Mormon. I like it. They are very much focused on family and that has always meant a ton to me. They are super nice people too. Hailee is LDS and she hasn’t pressured me into anything. The whole church has been so excepting towards me, being im not a member.

I guess what I’ve kind of noticed is that im here to learn. My purpose, my calling, or whatever you want to call it is to learn and accept. I might not believe what im learning about but im not going to cut out what others believe in my life. I will be happy to learn about anything. The one big thing is that im coming away with is; as long as I don’t force my beliefs on others they usually don’t force theirs on me and I come away from it with a better understanding of the way  He is working things out for me. 

And just think I got this all out of Glee. 

Logan

this is logan....My new car. its a 2002 chevy trail blazer...I LOVE THIS CAR!!!!!!!!!

YAY It's October!!!!

Well it's finally October. The start of the fall and winter fun, at least that's what I think. The week has already been pretty exciting. Hailee is starting to move out soon and I'm helping as much as I can. My parents went looking for a car today and found a possibility for me to have. It's a 2002 VW Jetta. I'm super excited because when I first started to drive that's what I wanted. 

This next week will be crazy for me though. I have like 5 papers i need to write and i probably have to Discussion Questions for my tech class.

WEEK:

Monday: class, starting to do some of the 5 papers, get my hair died again

Tuesday: class, go to hopefully my new job, do more of my papers

Wednesday: class, more papers

Thursday: class, hopefully finish all the papers, make sure house is clean, do laundry

Friday: class, PICK TREVOR UP!!!!

I'm so excited. I miss him sooooo much. 

 October starts so many things.

1) Its my birthday month!

2) Halloween

3) one month till Thanksgiving

4) two months away from Christmas

5) five months away from Valentines day

6) lots of good food

7) lots of fun with family

8) eight months from the wedding! 

YAY I love October!!!!  

Ohhh Monday

So it's no longer the weekend, which kinda stinks but it's the start of a new week.

WEEKEND

Trevor was out of town all weekend, fishing with his parents, so it's been rough to not have him on my mind. I miss him like crazy. I've been looking at my phone probably ever 10-20 minutes to see if he has texted me, which is a great example of the insanity of what long distance relationships will do to people. But I did spend my whole weekend with Hailee. Saturday we went and saw Easy A, which is soooooooo funny! And then we spent the night at her moms house. You might be wondering why we stayed there and not at Hailee's house, there is a simple answer to that: Hailee's roommate is crazy. Anyways Sunday I actually went to a Mormon church. At first I didn't understand why their church was 3 hours long until yesterday. The first hour is when there is announcements, and three people talked about fear and faith. The second hour was Sunday School. I couldn't even remember the last time I was in a Sunday School classroom. We talked about the modern revelations and the word of the Living Prophet. The third hour was Relief Society. We talked about how our mothers were such a huge influence on us. Then after church we went back to Hailee's house and sat around and watched Criminal Minds for a little. Then we went to dinner group. It was amazingly great! We had green chili enchiladas and beans and salsa...I'm making myself hungry. We played Scatagories and had brownies and mint chocolate chip ice cream.

This Week

Monday: I had a job interview at 10:30 this morning, and then I went to class. Later i will be trying to get an assignment done and turned in. Tonight is FHE and we are having a BBQ/ pool party. It should be fun.

Tuesday: Nothing planned but homework and class

Wednesday: Same as before but Brayden should be at the house.

Thursday: Nada

Friday: Open for suggestions.

I know it sounds super exciting!   

Have a Great week!

 

School Day Blues and BOYS!!!!

I'm sitting in my last class of the day wondering if ill be the only student in class today. I have this odd feeling i will be. Hm I hope that means I will get my students for my practicum, send out my Introduction letter, go over what im supposed to do, and get the heck out of here. Not gonna lie this is kinda sad.

Well I am the only student! Sweet.

Ever since Trevor and I have made it official that we are an item I've noticed something. The guys that would always text me and ask me to "hang out" have suddenly fell off the earth apparently. A couple of them sent me a message asking questions. The conversation would go something like this:

Male friend: you have a boyfriend

Me: yeah

Male friend: how long have you been talking to him?

Me: uhmmm I've known him my whole life

Male friend: oh. well how long have you been talking about getting serious?

Me: like 2 weeks

Male Friend: o cool

Me: yeah

And thats usually it. Kinda sad that they would just stop talking to me because i have a boyfriend. Makes me wonder, were they really my friends in the first place?

Things have been rough in the Hargis household. I have no job, which means i cant make any payments to my parents, which means they have to pay for my things. The job hunt isn't really working out for me though.
Wish me luck as the search goes on!

Days of Good and Bad

I no longer have a car. Shelia is gone. I have no job. I have little money. I should think of the things that make me happy but every time I do I just find something else that puts me in a meeh mood. I think of my amazing boyfriend and then I remember that he is over 300 miles away. I think hey, I got my best friend right? Of course I do, but I have to pick up my mom. 

So what did I do today? I pawned three pieces of jewelry from my ex-boyfriends gave me. I made $45 off them. I also put 2 other pieces on craigs list. I've already got two hits on the necklace. 

Since the last post nothing exciting has happened. I'm almost done with the second season of Veronica Mars. Hailee is beating me on that series. 

The wonderful world of job hunting sucks. I've applied to 2 hotels, and 2 grills/bars. i know it doesn't seem like I'm trying to hard but I am. No one is hiring anywhere. 

I'm trying to keep up on my school work but I am always so tired that I can't even keep my eyes open.

Trevor has been an amazing boyfriend. He says the sweetest things to me and I trust him more then anyone else. I miss him so much though. So that stinks.  Right this very moment he is at the Muse concert. 

Hailee right now is in her room watching episode 6 of the 3rd season of Veronica Mars. I haven't really seen her since Monday but im sure she is loving the Leslie house. 

Next weekend my dad is going to a car auction to get me a truck. Sweet.

HAILEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bahahhahahahhahahhahahahhahahahhahahahhahahhahahahahhahahhahahahhahahahhahahhahahahhahahhahahaha

Due to the fact that I know now my BFF is "blog" stalking me i have decided to dedicate this post to her!

The Fantastical Story on How Jennifer and Hailee became BFF!

Once apon a time, during the summer of 2010, I began to work at the wonderful pool named Stapley pool. I was the assistant night coach, Hailee was the head guard. Over the many days of closing the pool together a bond bloomed between us two. One great night Hailee asked me for a ride home and thats when I knew we would be friends for a very long time.Over the summer she helped me with my ex-he who should not be named issues, we hung out and talked of going golfing (which we still have yet to do), we went to the lake, had sleep overs at her mothers house. By the time summer was over we had our management worried that we would mess something up, but we did not care. Once summer was over we spent almost every weekend together, Big Red was not happy. We did not care what people thought of this new friendship. Being that our personalities are practicality the same we bond over boys, mountain dew, work, TV shoes that we adore, and the love for our Heavenly Father.  

Now that the summer is offically over you would think that work buddies would fall apart...WRONG!!!!! She is always there for me and accepts me for who I am. And same goes for me, She is an awesome Best Friend. I get no pressure form her, she gets none from me. So its good.

In the words of our wake up call...

GOOD MORNING I LOVE YOU! I LU HU HU HUUUUVE YOU!!!!

:)

Magical

So today i started a new journey, a new relationship with none other then...

Trevor Bates.

I've been lucky enough to know this wonderful man my whole life. Some might believe that "whole life" is just a figure of speech but in this case they believe wrong! I've gotten my diapers changed next to this kid! Even though he is the biggest dork I've ever known he still gets the best of me. I wonder how our family is going to take this. is it going to be "Okay Jenn you know if it doesn't work out it might put strain on our friendship" or "Jenn we are so happy for you two. We hope it works out!" but I know I will get a " When were you planning on telling us?" Oh well I don't care. I'm crazy about him and I hope and have a feeling that it will work out.

Exciting story number 2: I have complete finished Veronica Mars season 1. It's sad I know but its something Hailee and i got addicted to... like Mountain Dew. Its just something we cannot break. 

Oh and update on the lovely death of Shelia ( my car)

Someone from our insurance company is coming out to our dealership to look at the damages. I have to pay for traffic school and the ticket...I NEED A JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Day in bed

You would think that skipping a day of school and staying in bed would be relaxing right?

Well your wrong. It sucks

I hate being in pain, just saying.

Today consisted of:

A) sleeping

B) watching the news

C) watching netflix... allll day!

D) walking around the house cause you have no one to walk with outside (Doctors orders)

E) talking with insurance companies

F) sit in my super dark room being lonely and bored

Sounds like the most awesome day ever! NOT!!!

But to make it all better miss Hailee is on her way over for a Veronica Mars Marathon

and to take me for a walk.

Thank God for Hailee!

RIP Shellia thanks for the trip to the ER!

Today was rough. I made a unexpected visit to the ER. 

What happened was...

I was driving to school, traffic was going just fine, and then all of a sudden...

BAM

Traffic stopped!

and I couldn't stop fast enough!

I went to the ER and got a C-collar, a device that keeps you from moving your neck. They ran two tests, 1. CT scan ( Normal) 2. Xrays ( normal). So I got released and now I'm stuck at home in bed with so awesome drugs.

Here is the damage... 

    they say it can be fixed?...

picture of rental car will be coming up next

Classes and Friends

So I'm sitting in my Educational Psychology class... being bored as usual. So I decided to tell what my classes are and what they are about.

Class #1) Education Psychology- class on how to get into the heads of our young learners. Taught by Dr. Nan Penningtion, a nice older woman that is a born again hippie!

Class #2) Curriculum, Assessment, and Methods: Science and Mathematics- a class that lets me do elementary school projects...I LOVE THIS CLASS.  It also teaches us how to teach science and math 

Class # 3) Instructional Technology- this class should be about the what and the way we use technologies in the classroom, but after the first few weeks I realize if I want to learn about these so called technologies that they say are in the classroom then I'm going to have to learn it on my own.

Class #4) Earth and Space Sciences- this class hasn't started yet but I think the name says what its all about.

So those are the exciting classes that I get to take this semester.

I also wanted to give a list of my friends that I might me mentioning every now and then:

Hailee

Jaco (Jacqueline)

Trevor

Ashley

Mike

I know its not a lot but oh well.

Oh! and this is what Jaco (previously mentioned) do in our Education Psychology class..

 I love it!

 

The beginning and JoBros

So my BFF, Hailee, has a blog and i always read it, and now I'm deciding to start one. So what to write about my first time blogging... how about a get to know me. I was born in beautiful Oceanside, CA. My family and I moved here in AZ about 16 years ago. I go to Grand Canyon University ( the most expensive school EVER) which is a private christian school. My major is elementary education with an emphasis in science ( I like to say the whole title cause it makes me feel smarter).

Now about my family. I live with my mom and dad, who I love very much. I have two awesome older brothers. Jarodd (brother #1) is in the Army, plans on getting married next may (I'm a bridesmaid!!!!). He works in the Pentagon, I know it sounds super exciting but its a huge office building. Terence (brother #2) is married and has the most amazing little boy ever. Brayden is two years old and is my little monster. My dad is an ex-marine and does so much for me that I feel so honored to be his daughter. As for my mom she is my best friend in the house, I can talk to her about anything.

Your probably wondering why the title says JoBros too. Its cause tonight Hailee, her tow sisters, and I are going to their concert tonight. I'm super excited to go.